• In “me” news, I’m on Tumblr now! Come be amazed by all my pretty space reblogs, and maybe other stuff (eventually).
• Speaking of space, here’s a Kickstarter to finance a documentary about NASA, the history of the US space program, the future of space exploration, and all sorts of fun budget-related outrage. Half of you are giving me the side-eye right now, but I’m still interested to see the documentary, so shut up.
• I came across a new website called Asexual Artists, which seeks to put the spotlight on asexual writers, artists, musicians, and other creative types. It features interviews with artists where they talk about their projects as well as their own experiences as aces. The creator of the site has an intro post explaining that, the very few times we do find asexual representation in media, it’s been created by non-aces, and how it’s necessary for asexual people to have the space and ability to use their own voices, especially when it comes to representation.
• All this discussion about representation has had me thinking about Malinda Lo’s recent post about not self-rejecting and the importance of writing from a marginalized perspective. And I have noticed that when it comes to my own writing, the most difficult thing for me to do is write characters with an asexual or biromantic POV. Even though that’s myself. It’s way easier to write about other people’s perspectives than my own. I think part of it is that I’m afraid no one will like it (“Make it more mainstream!”), but the bigger fear is exposing myself. Even though I’ve tried to turn my orientation into something to be proud of (or at least something to laugh about), there’s still a very large part of me that doesn’t want people to see me as ace or bi, because I’m scared they’ll think I’m weird, or lying, or try to define me by it, or whatever.
Even now, I’m fighting the urge to delete this and every other reference to it on the internet, and go back to having people think of me as the normal, het, allo girl. I know I shouldn’t. But it’s still an enormous temptation.
Self-rejection sucks. And I’ll probably be dealing with it for a long time. But at least others are, too.
• Never mind that. Did you know Write All Year has been having weekly writing pep talks? Written by some very cool authors, some of whom I am an enormous fan of. You should go check them out and get encouraged.
• And finally, this is so cool and weird and crazy and somewhat relevant to my upcoming book: